Insults to Injury

I was reading on the internet earlier tonight and I found an article that really hit home with me.
No, I’m not going to post a link to it. In fact, the contents of it aren’t important to the world at large because it covers an issue that I would prefer to keep private. However, it did strike home heavily with me.
Occasionally, I will read something that will cause me to think, or cause me to agree with the author, or occasionally it will stir me to action.
I think the article that I read tonight may do just that.
I have had thoughts and feelings in my head since shortly after arriving at my current duty station that have made my life difficult and have caused me untold amounts of stress.
I have had the situation where I could have grabbed the situation by the balls and wrestled it to the ground. However, I never did.
I could never really put my feeling on the issue in to words. Or adequately express how I wanted to resolve the issues and internal conflicts.
But I found the exact feelings that I was experiencing in writing while I was looking for articles and church talks that would help me to cope with my emotions, thoughts, and feelings.
So, I know how I feel. I know how my personal situations are affecting me. And I know what HAS to be done.
I just don’t know if I have the mental/testicular fortitude to express what needs expressed.
And if I do, what if it backfires… horribly.
I am going to go back to looking for church talks, and articles, and anything that might bring me a few moments of peace. I would really give almost anything to find something that would just make me feel better.
But I really don’t think that it is going to happen.

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It’s only 280 miles.

The distance isn’t that far. It really isn’t. However, I’m faced with an infuriating situation.
I am current;y “underway” breaking ice on the Mackinaw. The job in and of itself isn’t a big deal, however where I’m at and what I’m doing right now is irritating me.
I live in Cheboygan Michigan. But right now I’m sitting moored at a pier in Port Huron Michigan.
My wife and kids are sitting back home and I’m sitting on the boat.
See, the distance isn’t great, but I can do NOTHING about getting closer to them.
I miss my family and my wife more than anything else right now. It’s heart breaking how much I miss them. It’s angering how much I want to be where I could hold and hug my wife and kids.
But… I’m sitting on the boat. At a pier. With NOTHING within walking distance.
Almost a prisoner of this place.
really… It’s not that far…

Metroid

It’s time for another video game post.
I like video games, I really do, but quite often I wind up liking a video game that I’m NO good at. I like the concept, I like the game ply, but really, I just don’t have the mental or testicular fortitude to finish it.
In this case, it’s Metroid.

The game had awesome controls, it had a amazing story line, and the basis behind the game was EPIC in every sense of the word.

I originally played the game on the NES when I was only about 9 years old. I was HORRIBLE at it. I then picked it up on SNES and was still horrible at it.

I moved in to Metroid Prime on the game cube… guess what… I was horrible at it. I always found myself getting scared of a game. Seriously, how stupid is that?

Anyways, I would play, I would research it on the internet, and I would enjoy looking at it as a fanboy.

Well, I picked up an SNES emulator tonight, I picked up a copy of Super Metroid, and I’m going to sit down and try and play it. I’m interested in how it turns out.
I might get scared. I might give up. I dunno. We’ll see what happens. Hopefully, I don’t totally suck at it. And if I do, I’ll just pick up Super Mario Brothers again. I know I can beat that one.
Final Fantasy 7 is in my list too. 🙂

That’s what I said! I picked my words for a reason.

Okay, Genesis is an interesting book in the Bible. It really is.
A lot of good things take place in the Bible, especially Genesis.
However, I was involved in a debate with some people recently that angered me. Well, after the debate ended, I had calmed down, and I was reflecting on some of the things that had taken place in my life, I had a realization.

My opponent in the debate, was WRONG!

I know what you’re thinking; “Garen, how do you know your opponent was wrong?”
Well, here is my answer. I will give you a link and then explain what I noticed.
First, some back story.
People that are convinced that the earth was created in 6 days time (144 hours) are retards! Honestly, thats how I feel. Also, the 6,000 year old earth theory is retarded also in my view.
Allow me to explain. We were debating the age of the earth, and I was talking to people of both viewpoints. Now, after the fact, I had remembered something that I had learned in the temple with my wife in regards to the creation story, and for some reason, at that point in my life, the thought stuck out. Well, here I was 6 months later, and I was able to use what I had learned.

Now, the link: http://scriptures.lds.org/en/gen/1
I want you to start by paying attention to verses 3 and 4. Dark and Light are referred to as “Day and Night”. Okay, so that’s how we got what we usually consider to be “days”. But, there was something interesting in the end of verse 5.
“And the evening and the morning were the first day.”
At first, I didn’t think that this was significant. But, it turns out it is. Here is how I know.
In verses 5, 8, 13, 19, 23, and 31, this same verbiage is used.
Now, we could look at the theory of “1,000 years is a human day” and maybe try and make that fit, but I disagree.
In each of these verses, the period of time where this specific step of creation took place is referred to be the “Morning and Evening” and then given a number for the day. I don’t think that these days of creation are the same as the typical days that were created in verses 3 and 4.
So, how long were each of the days of creation? I don’t know. Does it matter? Not really. My salvation doesn’t depend on it. So, with this little tidbit of personal insight, it cleared up a few things for me.
-Is the earth 6.8 billion years old? It could be. We don’t know how long each day of creation was. Heck, each day could have been a different length in order to facilitate the creative needs of that step.
-Did dinosaurs exist? Possibly. We have the bones, so there is nothing to suggest that they didn’t. God may have had a purpose for them. But for the days of creation to do their thing, there may well have been time for them to roam the earth, get their bodies, and move on.
-Is the earth really only 6-9,000 years old? I’m guessing no, but then again, God IS capable of anything.

Anyways, with this idea that the days of creation aren’t set in to stone as is suggested by many in the evangelical reich, it eases my mind a little, and actually makes the validity of the scriptures and the temple a little firmer in my mind.

Hope this was worth your time to read.

So, Are you, or Aren’t you?

An interesting series of events has recently taken place within WoW. Andrea used to be a guild leader, but after a number of bouts with that, she decided that it would be in her best interest to not let that happen again. Thusly, we wound up in Bloodshed for a while. That was… interesting.
Anyways, we had an issue where we are no longer guilded and are once again occupying space under our holder tag of <Gold Farmers Union>.

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Something funny happened when we made out exit though, we picked up three more people. This brings our total count of people during peak hours to 10.
Ten people.
Hmm, this seems like it could be somewhat dangerous.
Suddenly, we have this “grand idea” that we are going to go and continue raiding.
Well, after we settled back in to our disheveled home of a holder guild, and we decided taht raiding was a good idea, I had a small realization.
5 people, 10 people, 40 people, 200 people. Andrea is leading a guild again. Oddly enough, I don’t think she realizes it.
There are allready plans to implement a raiding schedule.
There are allready plans to implement a gear farming list.
There are allready plans to implement a structure for loot distribution.
There are allready plans to implement a method for group success.

Do you know what this means?

My wife is leading a guild again!

At least, this is just a group of 10 of us. No more, no less. This is manageable. And seeing as how this is a group of close friends, I don’t really foresee this exploding in her face.
She has good people leading skills, and we have competent people behind the keys of their associated toons. So, this should go well.

Now, we just need a badass tabard!

I’ll let you know how it turns out.